Two Steps Forward, PUNCHED IN THE FACE!

Just when I think that I am doing awesome, I say, or do, or think something completely off base! Why is that this always QUITE literally RIGHT after I have a whole thought process about how awesome I am doing?! Because I need too be humbled I would venture! I think it has something to do with the notion that the Lord will continue to try you with something until you have shown that it is no longer something that you struggle with. There is wisdom in that, however it is quite hard to be able to get up on your feet when the bully is punching your face WHILE your standing up, rough right?!

So my question is how do I outsmart the bully BEFORE he punches me, and the usuals don't count. Praying and reading my scriptures are a definite help, I see them as the buffer that keeps me from being completely clobbered at every waking moment, however I feel the need for more! Don't read this wrong please! I LOVE my life , but I know we all struggle with things and mine seems to be getting kicked while I'm still trying to get up. Whew, trying and tiring let me just say!

Perhaps it is simply a test that will only happen for a while, endure EP, keep going! Eventually you will be able to rip the Bully's arm off and throw it at his head! I look forward to that day, and feel that it is coming upon me fast! :D